D.I.Y

I need to buy a sewing machine.
Not want to. But need to.

I LOVE to do crafty things, making or altering stuff.
In the 7th grade I took an old tank top and altered it adding red and blue patches on it in the shape of the British flag. Hand Sewed. I hate to hand sew something THAT big. But I love to sew. However, no matter how much convince myself I want and need one. I have no home for it. There is no inch of my room free to set up a sewing machine.

Speaking of random crafts, I'm working on something for the Art House Scavenger Project. One of the items is 'Fortunes from cookies I have found'. So this gave me a great reason to buy an insane amount of fortune cookies, which of course I did. I have over 30 fortunes, and I might need to go get more. I'm excited for this project, it'll be the first one done on my list. I'm excited. There will be pictures when I'm done.

Hmm

I've been on Something's Hiding In Here's site all morning. I love everything they have made, they really inspire me. Not to mention I want to live in their house. It would be a dream. The whole vintage handmade one of a kind random style has been on my mind lately. The pastel but still somehow bright colors. Things that are distressed. Are and objects that are just generally OLD. On top of that I have been looking at the random stuff sold on Three Potato Four. I can't seen myself spending 250 on an old vintage pull down map of Asia & Australia or another random education map, BUT I WANT IT.


Both pictures are from Three Potato Four


I know. What would you ever do with that? Admire it? DUH. I kid, but really. It's gorgeous, to me at least. I could find a use for it. Just hang it up like normal art. Possible alerter it by adding a black out fabric to the back and have it hang in front of your window. That could damage it so I wouldn't do that, but it would cool. Either map would look great in a library area, or a study / crafty place. I love the colors too. Great greens and blues, even the pinks and yellows.

Assassins Creed 2

It's been a week since I have updated. Been really busy.
The puppy leaves today, and has been a handful.
It snowed a good five inches here and I had to take him out to go pee. Not the most fun thing to do over your Christmas break. Speaking of that, I got a lot of good stuff. Mosaic kit, painting stuff, GORGEOUS purse, huge stuffed penguin, and more. My dad got a new game, assassins creed 2. The two of us have been playing since the 25th.

AND today, finished the game.
I'm not going to say anything about the end because I don't want to kill it for anyone who is playing or wants to play. And if you don't want to play. You. Are. Crazy.

The end of the game left me saying "OMG I CAN NOT WAIT FOR THE NEXT ONE"
So of course, I jumped online to look and find out if there was going to be another game. THERE IS. The end of the second made me wonder the time setting, however one of the creator said in an interview he will in fact being going back in time some more.

Hmmm

Being woken up at six in the morning to a cute puppy needing to pee is the least fun way I have ever woken up. So far. So I slipped on my hounds tooth jacket and my moccasins and faced the cold with a cute puppy.

Right now he's eating. No pooping in my room yet. Which is really good, and I hope he doesn't make a mess. I haven taken him out again since six thirty and I HOPE he did something. Because he's laying on my bed again. I would pretty much cry if he did anything on my bed. =(

AdSense?

I feel like that's unreal. Making money off my blog? Then again I suppose I have to have views to get the money. I could use that money.

Speaking of money. My good lucky money bracelet broke. That same day I got a check from my grandma for $40. It's not a lot of money for a teenager who lost there job over the summer. It was a miracle. I have no clue what I'm going to do about a job. I have applied everywhere in town and nothing. Anthony on the other hand already has a job and now has an interview at a new place. Why can he get a job when he has one? When I can't even get a call back form Mikey D's. My work experience consist of being a waitress at a place that they can not even call because it is closed down. Putting that down is almost as bad as putting down nothing.

Someday I suppose I will get a job, it is bound to happen.

Death

I cleaned my fish tank for the first time in a few weeks. The fishy seemed fine, I didn't use anything harmful to clean it. Just used the spray thing on the sink and cleaned it all out. I'm terrible at keeping fish alive. I hope he is okay, I will feel terrible if I killed him. I hate the thought that something could die becayse of me. Well, honestly I am just terrible at keeping pets alive. Hamster I can keep alive for about 2 years (If we're both lucky). I miss Hamlet, she was the best pet I have ever had.


New news. I get to baby sit the cutest littler Pomerania this week.
His name is Ursus. Like Ursus Major, it means bear. He looks like a little fox but I Jenna (His mom/owner) thought that name in Latin was a little less cool. Right now he is sleeping on his cow all wrapped up in my rainbow blanket. He is the cutest thing ever. A liar however. She said he would whine and stop playing if he had to pee. Twice he has done this. The first time we made it outside and all he did was try to eat this leash. The second time we didn't make it outside. Our dog hunter freaked out and tried to run outside because he saw me holding the leash. Still, no pee. Puppies are such dorks.

What am I to do?

I do not believe that I am good at any certain thing.

When I try really hard I can produce an almost perfect portrait. When giving the right inspiration I can make an amazing painting. In due time I can make a pretty scarf. Today I learned I can make candy. Recently I learned how to make soup and candle. That was a ton of fun.

The years of my life I'm entering our the most important right now. Right now I am simply going on 18 and I will hope I will be a college student. The only thing about my life I am certain about is I love to learn random things. I wrote about the day Anthony showed me how to shoot a bb gun. (Which was SO much fun!)

Having one of those days were I'm bored out of my mind and have no idea how to fix it.

Today, the temporary fix to my boredom was making candy. That was fun. Aside from my dad burning his hand on the hot thermometer and me drooping the spoon into the molten candy, it went well. My mom got overly excited about it and wants us to make a million different kinds now so she can give them away. I could be wrong, but I am 99 percent sure she was no were to be seen until it was done.


As for now,
I will watch Julie and Julia. The whole time secretly wishing my blog and my words were amazing enough to inspire someone. Maybe one day that will happen, not like I see it happening time soon.

I bought a Pilates work out DVD today. I might be way too out of shape because I got about 5 minutes into the ab workout and thought my back was going to break and my abs would catch fire. I suppose the abs about to burst into flames is a good thing though.

I hate my body. However I am by no means fat, I just have fat in places I wish it wasn't. Mostly in the love handle form. I also wouldn't mind if my legs were more fit and my back end was more firm. Speaking of which I want those shoes that work your legs and butt as you walk. Anthony thinks it's lazy but I think it is an amazing idea. I love to walk, I walk all the time. Who doesn't want to do something they love and get a nice bum out of it.


Blogging is a terrible alternative to working out. I am not helping myself at all by talking about how much I would like a better body. That picture at the bottom is my goal. I might go tanning tomorrow to, just thinking that makes me feel superficial. I guess I might be. I want to have a good HEALTHY body and I like to tan and shop. It isn't about other people thinking I look good, it is about me thinking it. When I think I look good, I feel better and I am happier. When I know I don't look good my attitude is different. That might be how most girls are or it might not be. Everyone should have fun looking good ( good to THEM, not everyone else) and if that means you like being 'big'. Go for it. Just be healthy. That is the only thing that truely bothers me about some peoples weight. I want everyone to be safe and healthy, not grossing sick skinny or so fat they can't more. It just is not good. =( It really makes me sad to see people treat there bodies badly.

Sadly I have to go to all my classes today, even thought I only have one final. I wish it was in the morning so that I could go now, and come home early. I didn't do to hot on my physics final yesterday. 78 or 76, I can't remember for sure which it was, but I was shooting for a 97. 20 points off, it's very good at all. However I got an 81 on my English, I still have a C in that class, but I've tried hard. Not as hard as I could have tried but I know that next semester will be better.


Today is going to be extremely boring. At school that is.
During my Lab Aid block; I will be drawing something for my Art class. During my art class I will keep working on my drawing and watch the power point finals of the other kids. During my Family Living class I will write down a massive amount of notes for my Chem final. Finally during Chem I will more than likely have a break down and than take the hundred question final.

Anthony and I get to go to a concert tonight that is going to be pretty much amazing. It has been a while since I have been to a concert, and I've never been to one with Anthony. Lightly surprised that my parents are so okay with this they even got us the tickets. They were a late birthday present for Anthony.

An education

Not going to my first two classes today.
I already took my final for P.E, all I have to do now is E-mail her my paper. I can honestly say. It is the worst paper I have ever written, ever. However I am pretty sure I will get a good grade on it because there was really nothing to writing it, it was for P.E for heaven sake. As for my second class it is a study hall so there is no reason for me to be there at all.

I have not seen Anthony for a few days he is always so busy. I hate not being able to hang out with him. But! We have a concert tomorrow night and I am really excited for it.



Last week I saw a great movie. An Education. The ending was not the best ending for a movie ever, but I still loved it. It seemed to be set in England in the 60's. The colors, actors and costumes were nothing short of amazing. This movie made me fall back inlove with the sort of Indie vibe I have always loved about Jessica. I suppose I could never really be Indie, I have a blog. Blogging doesn't seem like a very Indie thing to do. Then again, what makes an Indie kid Indie? Courtney has the Indie music and fashion down to a T, but she has vibe about her that is just not right. She thinks she's better than everyone at most things, and likes to label herself.

Then you have Jessica. She has a very folk art taste in music and has always loved every kind of music, and movies. Put a horror movie on in front of this girl and she can go on for days about the pros and cons of this movie. Her attitude is one of the most laid back and amazing. As for her clothing, she has more of a Boho chic prep,thing going on.

Dolls?

I got bored. So I made a few dolls on this site.
Only one of them ending up looking good, and that's the picture I posted.

Is it terrible to be jealous of a few pixels?
She looks really happy and I love all the colors in the picture. I love what she's wearing. I wish I had the guts to wear a little skirt and boots to school. But nope, I'm always covered up. Not the biggest fan of my legs so they are almost always covered by jeans.

I have always been a hippie at heart. I just don't dress like one. However I want boots like the little ones on that doll. I haven't been able to find cute ones anywhere short of a costume shop. Costume shops really are a great place to find certain items, because you'll whatever you're looking for cheaper than buying the real deal. I just don't trust them to last very long. And sometimes they don't look right. These boots are cute, but I wish they had WAY more fringe. If you're going to do fringe on a boot you need to really DO it. Don't be wimpy about it. Like these cute Miley Boots that I found, and wish were a little taller.

My sisters Keeper.

Making hand made soaps and candles for Christmas. They aren't the prettiest in the world, but I love the little wrapping. It's so much fun to work on. I love doing crafty things. But now I have to wait til the rest are done so I can paint the tops and have my dad help me wrap them. Eucalyptus Mints are wrapped with green hemp, and Lavender a dark blue ( I don't have purple). The candles we will be making later are going to Orange, Holiday Home, and Cherry. We're aren't going to color them, but wrap them with a pretty white ribbon with the sent on them. It's going to be so cute! =D


Well I'm off to watch this movie. I will most likely cry, but I'm prepared for that. I might play W.O.W with Anthony. He had me get the trial so he had someone to play with. We both made 'Un-Dead.' AND unknown to each other until last night we made them the same color and with the same markings. Pretty cool.

You would not believe your eyes

I have so much to say, but no words.

I'm still pretty depressed. Not really sure how I'm going to get over learning that people I thought were my friends don't like me, at all. Monday is going to be fun because I'm dropping Art and getting my seminar changed. I might have already said that but I really have to convince myself that is what I'm going to do. I need to remove myself from people who are keeping me from focusing on school.



Alright, the whole time I've been typing I've been looking for the world 'like' come up. So far, only I've only typed it twice. Anthony's grandpa informed us that our vocab was that of a 12. He said we used the word 'like' 96 times. First off, Sorry I didn't know my PRIVATE conversation with my boyfriend was being graded. Secondly, I couldn't even hear Anthony sitting next to me, how did he here us? Any time starts off something by saying "No to be rude" they know what they are about to say is rude. I just ignored him because it was rude and a pointless lecture. When he was done talking I was pretty upset. He didn't need to be listening to our conversation, that was rude in itself, not to mention he didn't need to be all "I was listening to you talk and you said "like 96" times, Taylor you said it 7 times is on sentence". It took so much self control to not say "Really, I didn't know we were talking to you. Try minding your own business next time and my vocab shouldn't bother you".

I want to marry Anthony and I wouldn't mind being engaged for a long time. He also wants a long engagement, but isn't sure how he feels about marriage anyways. If he did ask me to marry him we would both get a LONG engagement. Because I refuse to be related to that ass hole he calls a grand father. =)

Tell me do you think you'd be alright?

Pretty much everyone hates me. And that fact is killing me. They don't hate me for any reason other than who and how I am. There isn't anything I can do about it. I learned I'm nothing more than an annoying dramatic bitch to most people.

What am I suppose to do? I can't get mad that they never told me they didn't like me at all. Up until last night I can be leading on my ex-bestfriend to think she still was my bestfriend. Now that's something I need to talk about. I sent Chelsea a text saying I couldn't talking to her anymore because she's changed and I can't handle the way she has been acting. I know it's weak to text her that, but I could handle lying to her any more. Even if I don't want to be her friend, I still respect her enough to tell her I don't want to. Unlike pretty much everyone else who just talks shit about me all the time.

I know I talk about people. But at least when I talk about something I don't like, they either KNOW I don't like them, or I'm not acting like they're friend. I don't pretend to like people. If I'm talking to you, I think you're worth my time to talk to, I think you'll be cool. I don't talk to people and be nice to them then turn around and call them an annoying bitch.




All this has made me realize, I'm NOT joining NAHS and I'm pretty much dropping art class. I don't want to deal with those people and I'm not going to put my self in the positions to be around them all the time. I hate this.

I'm in an insanely depressed mood right now.

Sleep did not love me last night.

I woke up a few times. The audio book for Dracula played while I was sleeping, and it didn't help. I didn't think it would help since I knew I was going to fall asleep. I didn't want to fall asleep, but I knew if I wasn't reading along I was going to.


I woke up two times during the right and stayed awake for what felt like an hour each time. The odd and creepy sounds I kept hearing I'm going to assume were coming from the audio.


I want to stay and write about my dreams and the all around weird-ness that was last night. However I have to go to school. And if I ever figure out this whole mobile blogging thing I'll try to update more often and make this blog more narrative.

Happy Birthday

Anthony turned 18 today. It's pretty cool and really weird all at the same time. I turn 18 next months and I'm wondering how I will feel that day, if it will be any different. It is really hard to believe that I'm grown up, I could join the army if I wanted to. I don't, but I could join.

I've been thinking about making this blog more detailed about my life, sort of like a life story. The only things is I don't know if I have an interesting life. I'm not Carrie Bradshaw living this amazing life with these outrageous friends. Oh I wish I owned the clothing that Carrie had on that show. Even though somethings she had weren't the best, she always looked amazing.

I have a lot I need to get done. Physics homework, that I know very well I'm not going to do. I nee to finish reading Dracula by third block tomorrow. And I need to finish knitting so I can start a new project. That's a small to-do list, but I have zero motivation to do any of it. So it seems a mile long.


It's getting a little late and I knew to take a shower, but I should really say something about my day. Since it was Anthony's birthday we decided to make our own stir fry and hangout together. That turned into a trip to the store with his grandparents to get his iPhone. He was on cloud nine and I was in hell. His grandfather would randomly start singing and was being just rude. Telling Anthony to group and get a big boy job, leave is lame little job. He has been looking for a new job, and it's not the easier thing to do. I want to see his grandfather get a freaking job. (I can not stand that old mad. He's had multiple heart attacks and is dietetics, but he takes terrible care of himself. Not to mention the rude comments he'd made to Anthony about me, pretty much being a slut.) And then to top it off his grandmother starts freaking out about the draft telling stories about what happened in the movies? (I also dislike her, but that because she was popping pills and stole MY necklace out of MY purse, and she stole her own grandsons medicine after his surgery so he stand awake in pain.) I hate that I don't get along with his grandparents, but I hate they way they treat him. I love him, but I don't want to be related to them.



Thankfully the stir fry went well. Mine was really good. It was my first time cooking tofu and it could have been better, but it wasn't bad by any means... it was just tofu. I took the rest home and it is in my refrigerator in a bag with sauces and veggies. My parents got take out so there is a ton of rice in there too, which means I just might have stir fry tomorrow. Found sushi wrappers at the store too, so I might have to make some sushi. With veggies of course.