May 16, 2011

A year ago next monday

I cannot believe a year ago next Monday I was walking across the stage, and got my diploma. Now I am frantically waiting for my College to post my final grades for my freshmen year. I know that I have one A, one B and what seems to be a C (Which is bullshit because I am pretty sure she did not grade my research paper, but never told me anything about that) and what I think will be a B.
 

May 15, 2011

We are the answer we have been looking for

I have no posted in a long long time. I guess the only difference in my life is Anthony is no longer my boyfriend, but he still my best friend and we talk all the time. I still love him, and I cannot picture my life without him. He is the best thing that has ever happened to me, I really do mean that.

However, this guy I work with might like me. I just want to get this out there,  I am in no way shape or form attracted to this guy! Oh my oh my, I do not like this. We have each others number because we have hung out in groups before, and we are going (in a group) on a road trip, but I do not like him. He is nice, but not my time. Wait, I lied, he is not really nice, he is just funny and flirty. He does MMA, his major is sports medicine (which is sorta cool) and he is generally rude to just about everyone. I am not into the kind of person that wears TapOut and makes fun of everyone. He is really religious too, which is so crazy because he's so rude. Honestly he is just not my type, well if I had a type he would be on the complete opposite.


Enough of that, I am in a pretty good place in my life.
Me and Anthony were hanging out, like we do pretty much everyday, and we should this site called Truth-Saves.com. Here is a quote.. of a quote from the site that really got me thinking ["No god will save us, we must save ourselves." wrote Paul Kurtz in Humanist Manifesto II (1973)] It made me think about a conversation Anthony and I had had recently; I was down and we were talking about I wondered if being religious would have helped me and I told him "We just need someone to believe in" to which Anthony replied "Why can't we believe in ourselves."

And I have nothing to say, it was true.
I do not spend enough time believing in myself, trusting my self and putting my life into my hands.