I need to buy a sewing machine.
Not want to. But need to.
I LOVE to do crafty things, making or altering stuff.
In the 7th grade I took an old tank top and altered it adding red and blue patches on it in the shape of the British flag. Hand Sewed. I hate to hand sew something THAT big. But I love to sew. However, no matter how much convince myself I want and need one. I have no home for it. There is no inch of my room free to set up a sewing machine.
Speaking of random crafts, I'm working on something for the Art House Scavenger Project. One of the items is 'Fortunes from cookies I have found'. So this gave me a great reason to buy an insane amount of fortune cookies, which of course I did. I have over 30 fortunes, and I might need to go get more. I'm excited for this project, it'll be the first one done on my list. I'm excited. There will be pictures when I'm done.
December 31, 2009
December 30, 2009
Hmm
I've been on Something's Hiding In Here's site all morning. I love everything they have made, they really inspire me. Not to mention I want to live in their house. It would be a dream. The whole vintage handmade one of a kind random style has been on my mind lately. The pastel but still somehow bright colors. Things that are distressed. Are and objects that are just generally OLD. On top of that I have been looking at the random stuff sold on Three Potato Four. I can't seen myself spending 250 on an old vintage pull down map of Asia & Australia or another random education map, BUT I WANT IT.
Both pictures are from Three Potato Four
I know. What would you ever do with that? Admire it? DUH. I kid, but really. It's gorgeous, to me at least. I could find a use for it. Just hang it up like normal art. Possible alerter it by adding a black out fabric to the back and have it hang in front of your window. That could damage it so I wouldn't do that, but it would cool. Either map would look great in a library area, or a study / crafty place. I love the colors too. Great greens and blues, even the pinks and yellows.
Both pictures are from Three Potato Four
I know. What would you ever do with that? Admire it? DUH. I kid, but really. It's gorgeous, to me at least. I could find a use for it. Just hang it up like normal art. Possible alerter it by adding a black out fabric to the back and have it hang in front of your window. That could damage it so I wouldn't do that, but it would cool. Either map would look great in a library area, or a study / crafty place. I love the colors too. Great greens and blues, even the pinks and yellows.
December 29, 2009
Assassins Creed 2
It's been a week since I have updated. Been really busy.
The puppy leaves today, and has been a handful.
It snowed a good five inches here and I had to take him out to go pee. Not the most fun thing to do over your Christmas break. Speaking of that, I got a lot of good stuff. Mosaic kit, painting stuff, GORGEOUS purse, huge stuffed penguin, and more. My dad got a new game, assassins creed 2. The two of us have been playing since the 25th.
AND today, finished the game.
I'm not going to say anything about the end because I don't want to kill it for anyone who is playing or wants to play. And if you don't want to play. You. Are. Crazy.
The end of the game left me saying "OMG I CAN NOT WAIT FOR THE NEXT ONE"
So of course, I jumped online to look and find out if there was going to be another game. THERE IS. The end of the second made me wonder the time setting, however one of the creator said in an interview he will in fact being going back in time some more.
The puppy leaves today, and has been a handful.
It snowed a good five inches here and I had to take him out to go pee. Not the most fun thing to do over your Christmas break. Speaking of that, I got a lot of good stuff. Mosaic kit, painting stuff, GORGEOUS purse, huge stuffed penguin, and more. My dad got a new game, assassins creed 2. The two of us have been playing since the 25th.
AND today, finished the game.
I'm not going to say anything about the end because I don't want to kill it for anyone who is playing or wants to play. And if you don't want to play. You. Are. Crazy.
The end of the game left me saying "OMG I CAN NOT WAIT FOR THE NEXT ONE"
So of course, I jumped online to look and find out if there was going to be another game. THERE IS. The end of the second made me wonder the time setting, however one of the creator said in an interview he will in fact being going back in time some more.
December 22, 2009
Hmmm
Being woken up at six in the morning to a cute puppy needing to pee is the least fun way I have ever woken up. So far. So I slipped on my hounds tooth jacket and my moccasins and faced the cold with a cute puppy.
Right now he's eating. No pooping in my room yet. Which is really good, and I hope he doesn't make a mess. I haven taken him out again since six thirty and I HOPE he did something. Because he's laying on my bed again. I would pretty much cry if he did anything on my bed. =(
Right now he's eating. No pooping in my room yet. Which is really good, and I hope he doesn't make a mess. I haven taken him out again since six thirty and I HOPE he did something. Because he's laying on my bed again. I would pretty much cry if he did anything on my bed. =(
December 21, 2009
AdSense?
I feel like that's unreal. Making money off my blog? Then again I suppose I have to have views to get the money. I could use that money.
Speaking of money. My good lucky money bracelet broke. That same day I got a check from my grandma for $40. It's not a lot of money for a teenager who lost there job over the summer. It was a miracle. I have no clue what I'm going to do about a job. I have applied everywhere in town and nothing. Anthony on the other hand already has a job and now has an interview at a new place. Why can he get a job when he has one? When I can't even get a call back form Mikey D's. My work experience consist of being a waitress at a place that they can not even call because it is closed down. Putting that down is almost as bad as putting down nothing.
Someday I suppose I will get a job, it is bound to happen.
Speaking of money. My good lucky money bracelet broke. That same day I got a check from my grandma for $40. It's not a lot of money for a teenager who lost there job over the summer. It was a miracle. I have no clue what I'm going to do about a job. I have applied everywhere in town and nothing. Anthony on the other hand already has a job and now has an interview at a new place. Why can he get a job when he has one? When I can't even get a call back form Mikey D's. My work experience consist of being a waitress at a place that they can not even call because it is closed down. Putting that down is almost as bad as putting down nothing.
Someday I suppose I will get a job, it is bound to happen.
Death
I cleaned my fish tank for the first time in a few weeks. The fishy seemed fine, I didn't use anything harmful to clean it. Just used the spray thing on the sink and cleaned it all out. I'm terrible at keeping fish alive. I hope he is okay, I will feel terrible if I killed him. I hate the thought that something could die becayse of me. Well, honestly I am just terrible at keeping pets alive. Hamster I can keep alive for about 2 years (If we're both lucky). I miss Hamlet, she was the best pet I have ever had.
New news. I get to baby sit the cutest littler Pomerania this week.
His name is Ursus. Like Ursus Major, it means bear. He looks like a little fox but I Jenna (His mom/owner) thought that name in Latin was a little less cool. Right now he is sleeping on his cow all wrapped up in my rainbow blanket. He is the cutest thing ever. A liar however. She said he would whine and stop playing if he had to pee. Twice he has done this. The first time we made it outside and all he did was try to eat this leash. The second time we didn't make it outside. Our dog hunter freaked out and tried to run outside because he saw me holding the leash. Still, no pee. Puppies are such dorks.
New news. I get to baby sit the cutest littler Pomerania this week.
His name is Ursus. Like Ursus Major, it means bear. He looks like a little fox but I Jenna (His mom/owner) thought that name in Latin was a little less cool. Right now he is sleeping on his cow all wrapped up in my rainbow blanket. He is the cutest thing ever. A liar however. She said he would whine and stop playing if he had to pee. Twice he has done this. The first time we made it outside and all he did was try to eat this leash. The second time we didn't make it outside. Our dog hunter freaked out and tried to run outside because he saw me holding the leash. Still, no pee. Puppies are such dorks.
December 20, 2009
What am I to do?
I do not believe that I am good at any certain thing.
When I try really hard I can produce an almost perfect portrait. When giving the right inspiration I can make an amazing painting. In due time I can make a pretty scarf. Today I learned I can make candy. Recently I learned how to make soup and candle. That was a ton of fun.
The years of my life I'm entering our the most important right now. Right now I am simply going on 18 and I will hope I will be a college student. The only thing about my life I am certain about is I love to learn random things. I wrote about the day Anthony showed me how to shoot a bb gun. (Which was SO much fun!)
When I try really hard I can produce an almost perfect portrait. When giving the right inspiration I can make an amazing painting. In due time I can make a pretty scarf. Today I learned I can make candy. Recently I learned how to make soup and candle. That was a ton of fun.
The years of my life I'm entering our the most important right now. Right now I am simply going on 18 and I will hope I will be a college student. The only thing about my life I am certain about is I love to learn random things. I wrote about the day Anthony showed me how to shoot a bb gun. (Which was SO much fun!)
Having one of those days were I'm bored out of my mind and have no idea how to fix it.
Today, the temporary fix to my boredom was making candy. That was fun. Aside from my dad burning his hand on the hot thermometer and me drooping the spoon into the molten candy, it went well. My mom got overly excited about it and wants us to make a million different kinds now so she can give them away. I could be wrong, but I am 99 percent sure she was no were to be seen until it was done.
As for now,
I will watch Julie and Julia. The whole time secretly wishing my blog and my words were amazing enough to inspire someone. Maybe one day that will happen, not like I see it happening time soon.
Today, the temporary fix to my boredom was making candy. That was fun. Aside from my dad burning his hand on the hot thermometer and me drooping the spoon into the molten candy, it went well. My mom got overly excited about it and wants us to make a million different kinds now so she can give them away. I could be wrong, but I am 99 percent sure she was no were to be seen until it was done.
As for now,
I will watch Julie and Julia. The whole time secretly wishing my blog and my words were amazing enough to inspire someone. Maybe one day that will happen, not like I see it happening time soon.
I bought a Pilates work out DVD today. I might be way too out of shape because I got about 5 minutes into the ab workout and thought my back was going to break and my abs would catch fire. I suppose the abs about to burst into flames is a good thing though.
I hate my body. However I am by no means fat, I just have fat in places I wish it wasn't. Mostly in the love handle form. I also wouldn't mind if my legs were more fit and my back end was more firm. Speaking of which I want those shoes that work your legs and butt as you walk. Anthony thinks it's lazy but I think it is an amazing idea. I love to walk, I walk all the time. Who doesn't want to do something they love and get a nice bum out of it.
Blogging is a terrible alternative to working out. I am not helping myself at all by talking about how much I would like a better body. That picture at the bottom is my goal. I might go tanning tomorrow to, just thinking that makes me feel superficial. I guess I might be. I want to have a good HEALTHY body and I like to tan and shop. It isn't about other people thinking I look good, it is about me thinking it. When I think I look good, I feel better and I am happier. When I know I don't look good my attitude is different. That might be how most girls are or it might not be. Everyone should have fun looking good ( good to THEM, not everyone else) and if that means you like being 'big'. Go for it. Just be healthy. That is the only thing that truely bothers me about some peoples weight. I want everyone to be safe and healthy, not grossing sick skinny or so fat they can't more. It just is not good. =( It really makes me sad to see people treat there bodies badly.
I hate my body. However I am by no means fat, I just have fat in places I wish it wasn't. Mostly in the love handle form. I also wouldn't mind if my legs were more fit and my back end was more firm. Speaking of which I want those shoes that work your legs and butt as you walk. Anthony thinks it's lazy but I think it is an amazing idea. I love to walk, I walk all the time. Who doesn't want to do something they love and get a nice bum out of it.
Blogging is a terrible alternative to working out. I am not helping myself at all by talking about how much I would like a better body. That picture at the bottom is my goal. I might go tanning tomorrow to, just thinking that makes me feel superficial. I guess I might be. I want to have a good HEALTHY body and I like to tan and shop. It isn't about other people thinking I look good, it is about me thinking it. When I think I look good, I feel better and I am happier. When I know I don't look good my attitude is different. That might be how most girls are or it might not be. Everyone should have fun looking good ( good to THEM, not everyone else) and if that means you like being 'big'. Go for it. Just be healthy. That is the only thing that truely bothers me about some peoples weight. I want everyone to be safe and healthy, not grossing sick skinny or so fat they can't more. It just is not good. =( It really makes me sad to see people treat there bodies badly.
December 17, 2009
Sadly I have to go to all my classes today, even thought I only have one final. I wish it was in the morning so that I could go now, and come home early. I didn't do to hot on my physics final yesterday. 78 or 76, I can't remember for sure which it was, but I was shooting for a 97. 20 points off, it's very good at all. However I got an 81 on my English, I still have a C in that class, but I've tried hard. Not as hard as I could have tried but I know that next semester will be better.
Today is going to be extremely boring. At school that is.
During my Lab Aid block; I will be drawing something for my Art class. During my art class I will keep working on my drawing and watch the power point finals of the other kids. During my Family Living class I will write down a massive amount of notes for my Chem final. Finally during Chem I will more than likely have a break down and than take the hundred question final.
Anthony and I get to go to a concert tonight that is going to be pretty much amazing. It has been a while since I have been to a concert, and I've never been to one with Anthony. Lightly surprised that my parents are so okay with this they even got us the tickets. They were a late birthday present for Anthony.
Today is going to be extremely boring. At school that is.
During my Lab Aid block; I will be drawing something for my Art class. During my art class I will keep working on my drawing and watch the power point finals of the other kids. During my Family Living class I will write down a massive amount of notes for my Chem final. Finally during Chem I will more than likely have a break down and than take the hundred question final.
Anthony and I get to go to a concert tonight that is going to be pretty much amazing. It has been a while since I have been to a concert, and I've never been to one with Anthony. Lightly surprised that my parents are so okay with this they even got us the tickets. They were a late birthday present for Anthony.
December 16, 2009
An education
Not going to my first two classes today.
I already took my final for P.E, all I have to do now is E-mail her my paper. I can honestly say. It is the worst paper I have ever written, ever. However I am pretty sure I will get a good grade on it because there was really nothing to writing it, it was for P.E for heaven sake. As for my second class it is a study hall so there is no reason for me to be there at all.
I have not seen Anthony for a few days he is always so busy. I hate not being able to hang out with him. But! We have a concert tomorrow night and I am really excited for it.
Last week I saw a great movie. An Education. The ending was not the best ending for a movie ever, but I still loved it. It seemed to be set in England in the 60's. The colors, actors and costumes were nothing short of amazing. This movie made me fall back inlove with the sort of Indie vibe I have always loved about Jessica. I suppose I could never really be Indie, I have a blog. Blogging doesn't seem like a very Indie thing to do. Then again, what makes an Indie kid Indie? Courtney has the Indie music and fashion down to a T, but she has vibe about her that is just not right. She thinks she's better than everyone at most things, and likes to label herself.
Then you have Jessica. She has a very folk art taste in music and has always loved every kind of music, and movies. Put a horror movie on in front of this girl and she can go on for days about the pros and cons of this movie. Her attitude is one of the most laid back and amazing. As for her clothing, she has more of a Boho chic prep,thing going on.
I already took my final for P.E, all I have to do now is E-mail her my paper. I can honestly say. It is the worst paper I have ever written, ever. However I am pretty sure I will get a good grade on it because there was really nothing to writing it, it was for P.E for heaven sake. As for my second class it is a study hall so there is no reason for me to be there at all.
I have not seen Anthony for a few days he is always so busy. I hate not being able to hang out with him. But! We have a concert tomorrow night and I am really excited for it.
Last week I saw a great movie. An Education. The ending was not the best ending for a movie ever, but I still loved it. It seemed to be set in England in the 60's. The colors, actors and costumes were nothing short of amazing. This movie made me fall back inlove with the sort of Indie vibe I have always loved about Jessica. I suppose I could never really be Indie, I have a blog. Blogging doesn't seem like a very Indie thing to do. Then again, what makes an Indie kid Indie? Courtney has the Indie music and fashion down to a T, but she has vibe about her that is just not right. She thinks she's better than everyone at most things, and likes to label herself.
Then you have Jessica. She has a very folk art taste in music and has always loved every kind of music, and movies. Put a horror movie on in front of this girl and she can go on for days about the pros and cons of this movie. Her attitude is one of the most laid back and amazing. As for her clothing, she has more of a Boho chic prep,thing going on.
December 8, 2009
Dolls?
I got bored. So I made a few dolls on this site.
Only one of them ending up looking good, and that's the picture I posted.
Is it terrible to be jealous of a few pixels?
She looks really happy and I love all the colors in the picture. I love what she's wearing. I wish I had the guts to wear a little skirt and boots to school. But nope, I'm always covered up. Not the biggest fan of my legs so they are almost always covered by jeans.
I have always been a hippie at heart. I just don't dress like one. However I want boots like the little ones on that doll.
I haven't been able to find cute ones anywhere short of a costume shop. Costume shops really are a great place to find certain items, because you'll whatever you're looking for cheaper than buying the real deal. I just don't trust them to last very long. And sometimes they don't look right. These boots are cute, but I wish they had WAY more fringe. If you're going to do fringe on a boot you need to really DO it. Don't be wimpy about it. Like these cute Miley Boots that I found, and wish were a little taller. 
December 7, 2009
My sisters Keeper.
Making hand made soaps and candles for Christmas. They aren't the prettiest in the world, but I love the little wrapping. It's so much fun to work on. I love doing crafty things. But now I have to wait til the rest are done so I can paint the tops and have my dad help me wrap them. Eucalyptus Mints are wrapped with green hemp, and Lavender a dark blue ( I don't have purple). The candles we will be making later are going to Orange, Holiday Home, and Cherry. We're aren't going to color them, but wrap them with a pretty white ribbon with the sent on them. It's going to be so cute! =D
Well I'm off to watch this movie. I will most likely cry, but I'm prepared for that. I might play W.O.W with Anthony. He had me get the trial so he had someone to play with. We both made 'Un-Dead.' AND unknown to each other until last night we made them the same color and with the same markings. Pretty cool.
December 6, 2009
You would not believe your eyes
I have so much to say, but no words.
I'm still pretty depressed. Not really sure how I'm going to get over learning that people I thought were my friends don't like me, at all. Monday is going to be fun because I'm dropping Art and getting my seminar changed. I might have already said that but I really have to convince myself that is what I'm going to do. I need to remove myself from people who are keeping me from focusing on school.
Alright, the whole time I've been typing I've been looking for the world 'like' come up. So far, only I've only typed it twice. Anthony's grandpa informed us that our vocab was that of a 12. He said we used the word 'like' 96 times. First off, Sorry I didn't know my PRIVATE conversation with my boyfriend was being graded. Secondly, I couldn't even hear Anthony sitting next to me, how did he here us? Any time starts off something by saying "No to be rude" they know what they are about to say is rude. I just ignored him because it was rude and a pointless lecture. When he was done talking I was pretty upset. He didn't need to be listening to our conversation, that was rude in itself, not to mention he didn't need to be all "I was listening to you talk and you said "like 96" times, Taylor you said it 7 times is on sentence". It took so much self control to not say "Really, I didn't know we were talking to you. Try minding your own business next time and my vocab shouldn't bother you".
I want to marry Anthony and I wouldn't mind being engaged for a long time. He also wants a long engagement, but isn't sure how he feels about marriage anyways. If he did ask me to marry him we would both get a LONG engagement. Because I refuse to be related to that ass hole he calls a grand father. =)
I'm still pretty depressed. Not really sure how I'm going to get over learning that people I thought were my friends don't like me, at all. Monday is going to be fun because I'm dropping Art and getting my seminar changed. I might have already said that but I really have to convince myself that is what I'm going to do. I need to remove myself from people who are keeping me from focusing on school.
Alright, the whole time I've been typing I've been looking for the world 'like' come up. So far, only I've only typed it twice. Anthony's grandpa informed us that our vocab was that of a 12. He said we used the word 'like' 96 times. First off, Sorry I didn't know my PRIVATE conversation with my boyfriend was being graded. Secondly, I couldn't even hear Anthony sitting next to me, how did he here us? Any time starts off something by saying "No to be rude" they know what they are about to say is rude. I just ignored him because it was rude and a pointless lecture. When he was done talking I was pretty upset. He didn't need to be listening to our conversation, that was rude in itself, not to mention he didn't need to be all "I was listening to you talk and you said "like 96" times, Taylor you said it 7 times is on sentence". It took so much self control to not say "Really, I didn't know we were talking to you. Try minding your own business next time and my vocab shouldn't bother you".
I want to marry Anthony and I wouldn't mind being engaged for a long time. He also wants a long engagement, but isn't sure how he feels about marriage anyways. If he did ask me to marry him we would both get a LONG engagement. Because I refuse to be related to that ass hole he calls a grand father. =)
December 5, 2009
Tell me do you think you'd be alright?
Pretty much everyone hates me. And that fact is killing me. They don't hate me for any reason other than who and how I am. There isn't anything I can do about it. I learned I'm nothing more than an annoying dramatic bitch to most people.
What am I suppose to do? I can't get mad that they never told me they didn't like me at all. Up until last night I can be leading on my ex-bestfriend to think she still was my bestfriend. Now that's something I need to talk about. I sent Chelsea a text saying I couldn't talking to her anymore because she's changed and I can't handle the way she has been acting. I know it's weak to text her that, but I could handle lying to her any more. Even if I don't want to be her friend, I still respect her enough to tell her I don't want to. Unlike pretty much everyone else who just talks shit about me all the time.
I know I talk about people. But at least when I talk about something I don't like, they either KNOW I don't like them, or I'm not acting like they're friend. I don't pretend to like people. If I'm talking to you, I think you're worth my time to talk to, I think you'll be cool. I don't talk to people and be nice to them then turn around and call them an annoying bitch.
All this has made me realize, I'm NOT joining NAHS and I'm pretty much dropping art class. I don't want to deal with those people and I'm not going to put my self in the positions to be around them all the time. I hate this.
I'm in an insanely depressed mood right now.
What am I suppose to do? I can't get mad that they never told me they didn't like me at all. Up until last night I can be leading on my ex-bestfriend to think she still was my bestfriend. Now that's something I need to talk about. I sent Chelsea a text saying I couldn't talking to her anymore because she's changed and I can't handle the way she has been acting. I know it's weak to text her that, but I could handle lying to her any more. Even if I don't want to be her friend, I still respect her enough to tell her I don't want to. Unlike pretty much everyone else who just talks shit about me all the time.
I know I talk about people. But at least when I talk about something I don't like, they either KNOW I don't like them, or I'm not acting like they're friend. I don't pretend to like people. If I'm talking to you, I think you're worth my time to talk to, I think you'll be cool. I don't talk to people and be nice to them then turn around and call them an annoying bitch.
All this has made me realize, I'm NOT joining NAHS and I'm pretty much dropping art class. I don't want to deal with those people and I'm not going to put my self in the positions to be around them all the time. I hate this.
I'm in an insanely depressed mood right now.
December 2, 2009
Sleep did not love me last night.
I woke up a few times. The audio book for Dracula played while I was sleeping, and it didn't help. I didn't think it would help since I knew I was going to fall asleep. I didn't want to fall asleep, but I knew if I wasn't reading along I was going to.
I woke up two times during the right and stayed awake for what felt like an hour each time. The odd and creepy sounds I kept hearing I'm going to assume were coming from the audio.
I want to stay and write about my dreams and the all around weird-ness that was last night. However I have to go to school. And if I ever figure out this whole mobile blogging thing I'll try to update more often and make this blog more narrative.
I woke up two times during the right and stayed awake for what felt like an hour each time. The odd and creepy sounds I kept hearing I'm going to assume were coming from the audio.
I want to stay and write about my dreams and the all around weird-ness that was last night. However I have to go to school. And if I ever figure out this whole mobile blogging thing I'll try to update more often and make this blog more narrative.
December 1, 2009
Happy Birthday
Anthony turned 18 today. It's pretty cool and really weird all at the same time. I turn 18 next months and I'm wondering how I will feel that day, if it will be any different. It is really hard to believe that I'm grown up, I could join the army if I wanted to. I don't, but I could join.
I've been thinking about making this blog more detailed about my life, sort of like a life story. The only things is I don't know if I have an interesting life. I'm not Carrie Bradshaw living this amazing life with these outrageous friends. Oh I wish I owned the clothing that Carrie had on that show. Even though somethings she had weren't the best, she always looked amazing.
I have a lot I need to get done. Physics homework, that I know very well I'm not going to do. I nee to finish reading Dracula by third block tomorrow. And I need to finish knitting so I can start a new project. That's a small to-do list, but I have zero motivation to do any of it. So it seems a mile long.
It's getting a little late and I knew to take a shower, but I should really say something about my day. Since it was Anthony's birthday we decided to make our own stir fry and hangout together. That turned into a trip to the store with his grandparents to get his iPhone. He was on cloud nine and I was in hell. His grandfather would randomly start singing and was being just rude. Telling Anthony to group and get a big boy job, leave is lame little job. He has been looking for a new job, and it's not the easier thing to do. I want to see his grandfather get a freaking job. (I can not stand that old mad. He's had multiple heart attacks and is dietetics, but he takes terrible care of himself. Not to mention the rude comments he'd made to Anthony about me, pretty much being a slut.) And then to top it off his grandmother starts freaking out about the draft telling stories about what happened in the movies? (I also dislike her, but that because she was popping pills and stole MY necklace out of MY purse, and she stole her own grandsons medicine after his surgery so he stand awake in pain.) I hate that I don't get along with his grandparents, but I hate they way they treat him. I love him, but I don't want to be related to them.
Thankfully the stir fry went well. Mine was really good. It was my first time cooking tofu and it could have been better, but it wasn't bad by any means... it was just tofu. I took the rest home and it is in my refrigerator in a bag with sauces and veggies. My parents got take out so there is a ton of rice in there too, which means I just might have stir fry tomorrow. Found sushi wrappers at the store too, so I might have to make some sushi. With veggies of course.
I've been thinking about making this blog more detailed about my life, sort of like a life story. The only things is I don't know if I have an interesting life. I'm not Carrie Bradshaw living this amazing life with these outrageous friends. Oh I wish I owned the clothing that Carrie had on that show. Even though somethings she had weren't the best, she always looked amazing.
I have a lot I need to get done. Physics homework, that I know very well I'm not going to do. I nee to finish reading Dracula by third block tomorrow. And I need to finish knitting so I can start a new project. That's a small to-do list, but I have zero motivation to do any of it. So it seems a mile long.
It's getting a little late and I knew to take a shower, but I should really say something about my day. Since it was Anthony's birthday we decided to make our own stir fry and hangout together. That turned into a trip to the store with his grandparents to get his iPhone. He was on cloud nine and I was in hell. His grandfather would randomly start singing and was being just rude. Telling Anthony to group and get a big boy job, leave is lame little job. He has been looking for a new job, and it's not the easier thing to do. I want to see his grandfather get a freaking job. (I can not stand that old mad. He's had multiple heart attacks and is dietetics, but he takes terrible care of himself. Not to mention the rude comments he'd made to Anthony about me, pretty much being a slut.) And then to top it off his grandmother starts freaking out about the draft telling stories about what happened in the movies? (I also dislike her, but that because she was popping pills and stole MY necklace out of MY purse, and she stole her own grandsons medicine after his surgery so he stand awake in pain.) I hate that I don't get along with his grandparents, but I hate they way they treat him. I love him, but I don't want to be related to them.
Thankfully the stir fry went well. Mine was really good. It was my first time cooking tofu and it could have been better, but it wasn't bad by any means... it was just tofu. I took the rest home and it is in my refrigerator in a bag with sauces and veggies. My parents got take out so there is a ton of rice in there too, which means I just might have stir fry tomorrow. Found sushi wrappers at the store too, so I might have to make some sushi. With veggies of course.
November 30, 2009
Tis the Season.
Those picture is from BHG.com I love the holidays.
There a time to no stress and just you're normal everyday good time.
Not for me.
Or at least not today.
As always I can find any reason to become stressed out. And the reason right now is NAHS. That means National Art Honor Society. I was in that club sophomore and junior year, and I was VP for two months this year. The club died under the leadership of my so called bestfriend. She was a dead beat and didn't do ANYTHING, which put the stress on me. I wasn't president because I can't handle stressful jobs, and it made it worse that we were in the middle the of the largest project of high school. I needed a break, so we tried to tell the sponsor that we couldn't have two meetings a week every week. Which meant I didn't care about it, at all. I was unaware that I didn't care about it. Rachel on the other hand is the only person that cared about the club, which she oh so lovingly told me at lunch today. That's so bullshit. I care about NAHS, I caved under the stress and was done putting with getting talked down to by our sponsor. I couldn't handle having that many meetings, and I didn't sign on for taking control of everything. I was overwhelmed and no one tried to help me. They just claimed that I didn't care. Yeah I hated going to the meetings, but I think anyone one would hate that if they knew they were gunna have to make it because the president wasn't going to show up. If it gets fixed and put back together, I'll rejoin, but I'm not going to be an officer. I don't care what any of them say. I want to be a member, because I care, but they obviously don't need my help, so I'd just be there to be a part of it.
I want it to get fixed. I miss it. The past two years were always fun. Painting things and just going good deeds when we could. I really am sad that this year I won't get to paint Christmas toys for kids.
November 29, 2009
Is there anybody out there?
I wish there was someway to tell people stuff, see how they react, and then decide if you really want to do it, and be able to restart the conversation. Now that would be amazing. People would always think you know the perfect thing to say. I wouldn't mind that, since I never have the perfect thing to say. And I also wish I knew how to tell my so called bestfriend that life doesn't end when someone dumps you, you still have other people in your life.
I was always there for her. The she started dating this certain girl. For the first few months it was all fine. Then the girl didn't like that my bestfriend spent so much time with me. So I started being able to see her less and less. Then they broke up. I couldn't stand seeing my bestfriend broken like that, so I talked to them both and got them work things out. Things were great. For a little while. The girl cheated on her. She cheated on the girl. Everything sucked for a very long time. Then just recently they broke up for good. And I lost my bestfriend. She isn't the same person at all. All she talks about is how much she misses her, and how much she hates her new girlfriend. I can't stand it. It's gotten so bad, I don't answer her text and I've hidden her facebook updates. I can't stand us not being so close, I hate missing her, because I know she doesn't miss me. She doesn't think of anyone but herself and that girl.
But on a happy note. Last night was so much fun. Went to the movie on a double date, which then ending up with teh guys going to laser quest and me and the other girl eating donuts from The Donut Whole at Star Bucks. It was a really fun night. I haven't had that much fun in a really long time and it was great. They have the best donuts there, I love taking new people there. Only problem was we got there really late so they were out of a lot of good ones, so we just told the guy to pick some for us. It was a great idea. I love them, and they're even good the next day.
I was always there for her. The she started dating this certain girl. For the first few months it was all fine. Then the girl didn't like that my bestfriend spent so much time with me. So I started being able to see her less and less. Then they broke up. I couldn't stand seeing my bestfriend broken like that, so I talked to them both and got them work things out. Things were great. For a little while. The girl cheated on her. She cheated on the girl. Everything sucked for a very long time. Then just recently they broke up for good. And I lost my bestfriend. She isn't the same person at all. All she talks about is how much she misses her, and how much she hates her new girlfriend. I can't stand it. It's gotten so bad, I don't answer her text and I've hidden her facebook updates. I can't stand us not being so close, I hate missing her, because I know she doesn't miss me. She doesn't think of anyone but herself and that girl.
But on a happy note. Last night was so much fun. Went to the movie on a double date, which then ending up with teh guys going to laser quest and me and the other girl eating donuts from The Donut Whole at Star Bucks. It was a really fun night. I haven't had that much fun in a really long time and it was great. They have the best donuts there, I love taking new people there. Only problem was we got there really late so they were out of a lot of good ones, so we just told the guy to pick some for us. It was a great idea. I love them, and they're even good the next day.
November 27, 2009
G.I. Joe
Shopping went really well today. They didn't have my purse, but my mom is getting it for me for my birthday. Now I just have to find the perfect boots to get for Christmas. I talked about a pair of boots before that I love, and still love. But I found these online.
I love target so much. They gave me my amazing coat and they will also hopefully bring me these. I want the gray ones, but I also love the black ones. Either would look good with anything.
I got three cute shirt this morning. Nothing else really caught my eye. Except a cute sweater coat thing, and a sweater dress. Both were very tight, and I have hips and an ass so I don't really look good in things like that. Maybe someday I'll have flat sized and pull off outfits like that.
I love target so much. They gave me my amazing coat and they will also hopefully bring me these. I want the gray ones, but I also love the black ones. Either would look good with anything. I got three cute shirt this morning. Nothing else really caught my eye. Except a cute sweater coat thing, and a sweater dress. Both were very tight, and I have hips and an ass so I don't really look good in things like that. Maybe someday I'll have flat sized and pull off outfits like that.
November 26, 2009
Black Friday Flu
The past 12 hour all I can think of is fashion. I adore dressing up, and looking good. This outfit is great, and this site is amazing. I newly found Jcrew.com and I love it. Now I just need money.
Dear Lord, I love your Kohls
I found this bag on Kohl's site. It's 41 right now, normally 69. Their Black Friday sale starts online at midnight. So I'm going to check back and see if what the price is then. If it's cheap, I plan to order it right there and then. I need this bad in my life. I NEED a bigger one for more functional reasons, but this bag is calling me. It looks like it might be the same size as the one I have now, but I do not care. I love it.
Well I'm off to watch a movie with my dad, then hopefully talk to Anthony.
Happy thanks giving
I'm not really sure what I'm thankful for.
I know I should say that I'm thankful for my family, and my friends. But I can't really say that. I'm thankful for my mother and father, I'm thankful for moving out soon (hopefully) and not having to talk to my sister. I'm really thankful for that. I think I'm going to be thankful for thanksgivings without her for a while. Don't get me wrong, I love my sister. But she's not my friend, I hate hanging out with her, talking her to her is one of my least favorite task, but I'd help her out... If I had to.
I'm thankful for faux turkey. And good food.
I'm also really thankful for Anthony. I love him with all my heart, and don't know where I'd be in my life without him. I look forward to the years together we'll have were we can have our own thanksgivings. I'm thankful for him everyday.
I'm not really sure what else I should be thankful for. Maybe my health. I'm thankful that I'm alive and surrounded by love. I'm thankful for my families lucky and that they haven't lot their jobs. I'm thankful for good spirits and happy smiles. I'm thankful for good times and kisses. I'm thankful for the stupid people that love twilight, they make school entertaining. I'm thankful for blogger and creative people that inspire me. I'm thankful for music. I'm thankful unlimited texting. I'm thankful for FML.com. I'm thankful for the Macy's day parade and insane about my helium.
I can't think of anything else.
Have a happy thanks giving. =D
I know I should say that I'm thankful for my family, and my friends. But I can't really say that. I'm thankful for my mother and father, I'm thankful for moving out soon (hopefully) and not having to talk to my sister. I'm really thankful for that. I think I'm going to be thankful for thanksgivings without her for a while. Don't get me wrong, I love my sister. But she's not my friend, I hate hanging out with her, talking her to her is one of my least favorite task, but I'd help her out... If I had to.
I'm thankful for faux turkey. And good food.
I'm also really thankful for Anthony. I love him with all my heart, and don't know where I'd be in my life without him. I look forward to the years together we'll have were we can have our own thanksgivings. I'm thankful for him everyday.
I'm not really sure what else I should be thankful for. Maybe my health. I'm thankful that I'm alive and surrounded by love. I'm thankful for my families lucky and that they haven't lot their jobs. I'm thankful for good spirits and happy smiles. I'm thankful for good times and kisses. I'm thankful for the stupid people that love twilight, they make school entertaining. I'm thankful for blogger and creative people that inspire me. I'm thankful for music. I'm thankful unlimited texting. I'm thankful for FML.com. I'm thankful for the Macy's day parade and insane about my helium.
I can't think of anything else.
Have a happy thanks giving. =D
November 22, 2009
Medium Auburn.
I'm dying my hair.
And then when I'm done I think I'll run to the tanning place and drop off my application. I might also check in on Anthony. I'm not sure yet though.
I might just wait to see if he needs me to pick him up from work, and I'll drop off the application on my way. That one seems like a better idea, that way I have time to look cute. I feel like, the way you look when you pick up or drop off an application means a lot. If you look like a slob, I doubt you will get the job.
I hope my hair turns out right. I have never done it on my own, my mother always helps me. But I wanted to do it myself this time. I think it will turn out find. I don't really think you can mess up dying hair that much. It's a rather easy thing to do.
Fall break starts this week. Only two days of school then I get to stuff my face. I fell sort of bad, because the 16 ounce fake turkey they got me is as much as the 12 pound real turkey they got. I feel bad about that. I wish it was cheaper. I love thanksgiving. It has no real point, except to have families together eating a large amount of food. The only real time were dieters eat anything they want. This will be my first year of having a 100% vegetarian thanksgiving, and I know it won't be my last.
I love being a vegetarian. I hate the stupid people who always have something negative to say about it, and make it a 'who is right, who's wrong' thing.
And then when I'm done I think I'll run to the tanning place and drop off my application. I might also check in on Anthony. I'm not sure yet though.
I might just wait to see if he needs me to pick him up from work, and I'll drop off the application on my way. That one seems like a better idea, that way I have time to look cute. I feel like, the way you look when you pick up or drop off an application means a lot. If you look like a slob, I doubt you will get the job.
I hope my hair turns out right. I have never done it on my own, my mother always helps me. But I wanted to do it myself this time. I think it will turn out find. I don't really think you can mess up dying hair that much. It's a rather easy thing to do.
Fall break starts this week. Only two days of school then I get to stuff my face. I fell sort of bad, because the 16 ounce fake turkey they got me is as much as the 12 pound real turkey they got. I feel bad about that. I wish it was cheaper. I love thanksgiving. It has no real point, except to have families together eating a large amount of food. The only real time were dieters eat anything they want. This will be my first year of having a 100% vegetarian thanksgiving, and I know it won't be my last.
I love being a vegetarian. I hate the stupid people who always have something negative to say about it, and make it a 'who is right, who's wrong' thing.
November 21, 2009
21 to 16
All we needed to do was run it two more yards and we could have won by one point. They hold us back and the clock stops. Flag on the play for 15 for a 15 second penalty. Clock resets at 2 seconds. Our boys had no chance. But I've never been more proud of them. We almost made it to state for the first time since 1994. Our spirits might be a little down, but we played an amazing game.
Today probably won't be much fun. Anthony is busy all day. I have nothing planed but painting and knitting. Maybe some homework, but that doesn't sound like any fun at all.
I might watch some movies. Really debating how I feel about seeing New Moon. It could be good, but I don't want to pay for it. Hahaha. I know for a fact it's not worth 7 or 9 dollars to me. I can't bring myself to put money in the pocket of the moronic writer who gave us glittery vampires. I tried to read twilight. I didn't even make it through the first chapter. That woman can not right. I'm sorry to all the tweens and older women, you've been brain washed by a 40 year old wet dream about glittery vampires and teen werewolves.
Today probably won't be much fun. Anthony is busy all day. I have nothing planed but painting and knitting. Maybe some homework, but that doesn't sound like any fun at all.
I might watch some movies. Really debating how I feel about seeing New Moon. It could be good, but I don't want to pay for it. Hahaha. I know for a fact it's not worth 7 or 9 dollars to me. I can't bring myself to put money in the pocket of the moronic writer who gave us glittery vampires. I tried to read twilight. I didn't even make it through the first chapter. That woman can not right. I'm sorry to all the tweens and older women, you've been brain washed by a 40 year old wet dream about glittery vampires and teen werewolves.
November 20, 2009
Bailout?
I haven't had much to say lately. Right now I am in the weirdest mood, it's a mix between bursting with joy and wanting to break down and cry. Not a hundred percent sure why I feel so bi polar, but I just do.
We might now have enough money for my to go school, and that kills me. I don't want to go to a community college, but I might have to. I don't think that would kill me as much as not going at all.
I have NO idea how the president got elected. He has screw everyone over. While he was trying to rally votes he made all of this promises that he hasn't kept yet. Thanks to him tax payers had to bailout big car companies. But who's going to bailout families like mine who work for those companies and are losing jobs because GMAC or whoever takes their jobs over seas? I thought the pint of the bailout was so they could have a second change to be better? Who is going to bailout the people that will never get the correct medical help because of the stupid Health Care re-form? Who is going to bailout the children (like me) who have wanted to be a doctor for ever, who are about to or have already invested a lot of time and money into helping people and going to Med School?
I'm not a racist person, I don't judge people by the color. I judge people by their character. The president, who's name I refuse to say because I he needs no further publicity, is an idiot. He is a charismatic foul. The only reason he got as far as he did was because he knew how to work the media. He's pretty much just like Nixon. Working the new technology every way he could.
If he get re elected, I'm moving. I'll find somewhere were I can be a doctor and REALLY help people. Not working about who the suits will let me save.
We might now have enough money for my to go school, and that kills me. I don't want to go to a community college, but I might have to. I don't think that would kill me as much as not going at all.
I have NO idea how the president got elected. He has screw everyone over. While he was trying to rally votes he made all of this promises that he hasn't kept yet. Thanks to him tax payers had to bailout big car companies. But who's going to bailout families like mine who work for those companies and are losing jobs because GMAC or whoever takes their jobs over seas? I thought the pint of the bailout was so they could have a second change to be better? Who is going to bailout the people that will never get the correct medical help because of the stupid Health Care re-form? Who is going to bailout the children (like me) who have wanted to be a doctor for ever, who are about to or have already invested a lot of time and money into helping people and going to Med School?
I'm not a racist person, I don't judge people by the color. I judge people by their character. The president, who's name I refuse to say because I he needs no further publicity, is an idiot. He is a charismatic foul. The only reason he got as far as he did was because he knew how to work the media. He's pretty much just like Nixon. Working the new technology every way he could.
If he get re elected, I'm moving. I'll find somewhere were I can be a doctor and REALLY help people. Not working about who the suits will let me save.
November 15, 2009
Craigslist
Hahaha. I feel pretty lame right now. I'm selling my art work on Craigslist. But I suppose you have to start somewhere. I wonder if the famous artist of today ever sold there art online, at some lame site. Eh. I really do not see myself making a career out of art, not really sure if I'm good enough for that. I love to do it though, that's no doubt. My fingers are almost always covered in paint.
November 14, 2009
Knit knit knit
Sitting in my snuggy computer chair knitting. I feel so much older than I am. And then I hear 'Party in the USA' in the background. Knitting while listening to Miley, does that make me a weird teenager? =) Maybe,but I like being a little bit less normal than everyone else. The sky outside right now is a terrible shade of gray and it makes me want to take a nap. But I know I shouldn't.
Nothing has really happened to me the past few days.
I started a big painting of Micheal Jackson. It's 38 by 28 inches, which is pretty big. I'm done with the body but I'm not sure how to bring it all together with the background. Not gunna lie, I'm excited to see it done. Anthony said he wants it, but I was gunna sell it. I'll think about it, but I'd feel horrible if I sold it since he wants it. Hmm
Nothing has really happened to me the past few days.
I started a big painting of Micheal Jackson. It's 38 by 28 inches, which is pretty big. I'm done with the body but I'm not sure how to bring it all together with the background. Not gunna lie, I'm excited to see it done. Anthony said he wants it, but I was gunna sell it. I'll think about it, but I'd feel horrible if I sold it since he wants it. Hmm
November 12, 2009
Art Sale?
I'm selling some of my art.
Anything that Anthony and I thought looked like it could be worth anything.
I'm selling a painted chair, some two panel flower thingie, Sweet green/blue water color piece, Blue/Orange face painting, random flower thingie. Yeah, I love how I describe all of those. They're going up on Cragie's List, and My myspace, and I'll post the links on here. I hope people see them and like them. I could use the extra cash, and it's not like I'm doing anything with them. Right now they're in a stack in my closet. Collecting dust. I want them to be loved and shown.
Here is some of my art. They aren't the best pictures. But they look better in real life.
http://tinypic.com/r/317jz0n/4
http://tinypic.com/r/ivbr5v/4
http://tinypic.com/r/5zpixu/4
http://tinypic.com/r/2vt9qte/4
Anything that Anthony and I thought looked like it could be worth anything.
I'm selling a painted chair, some two panel flower thingie, Sweet green/blue water color piece, Blue/Orange face painting, random flower thingie. Yeah, I love how I describe all of those. They're going up on Cragie's List, and My myspace, and I'll post the links on here. I hope people see them and like them. I could use the extra cash, and it's not like I'm doing anything with them. Right now they're in a stack in my closet. Collecting dust. I want them to be loved and shown.
Here is some of my art. They aren't the best pictures. But they look better in real life.
http://tinypic.com/r/317jz0n/4
http://tinypic.com/r/ivbr5v/4
http://tinypic.com/r/5zpixu/4
http://tinypic.com/r/2vt9qte/4
November 11, 2009
Make a wish
I went shopping downtown with Jessica.
Dolci & Joe's is THE best Sandwich / burger place ever. I have the most amazing vegetarian sandwich. It was so good, the bread was fresh and HUGE. Also, their fries were giant and so good. The fries themselves were giant, but there were a bunch. I'm hungry again now.
We walked around to a bunch of cute stores. I feel in love with the house that was used as the antique store. I found a lot of stuff I want in my house, but I know there is no way I can get it. I would have no money for a house if I bought everything I wanted. We also went into this cute store, Traditions. They had amazing paintings and chairs. The chairs in this place were some of the most amazing I have ever seen. My house is going to so amazing. I'll even make it fit the season to. Not go all out and be tacky, but a classy Fall, Winter/Christmas, stuff like that. Eeep. I'm so excited to move out and have a house.
There are two paintings that I want to paint, really bad. I'm excited to work on them. I just need to buy some big canvas.
I feel so refreshed. I need more days like today. Just having a fun time, not having to worry about anything. Not having to worry about being judged.
Dolci & Joe's is THE best Sandwich / burger place ever. I have the most amazing vegetarian sandwich. It was so good, the bread was fresh and HUGE. Also, their fries were giant and so good. The fries themselves were giant, but there were a bunch. I'm hungry again now.
We walked around to a bunch of cute stores. I feel in love with the house that was used as the antique store. I found a lot of stuff I want in my house, but I know there is no way I can get it. I would have no money for a house if I bought everything I wanted. We also went into this cute store, Traditions. They had amazing paintings and chairs. The chairs in this place were some of the most amazing I have ever seen. My house is going to so amazing. I'll even make it fit the season to. Not go all out and be tacky, but a classy Fall, Winter/Christmas, stuff like that. Eeep. I'm so excited to move out and have a house.
There are two paintings that I want to paint, really bad. I'm excited to work on them. I just need to buy some big canvas.
I feel so refreshed. I need more days like today. Just having a fun time, not having to worry about anything. Not having to worry about being judged.
November 10, 2009
We need some space.
I hate the way that sounds.
And it's not like it's entirely true either. I need some space from Anthony, but I don't want the space. I love him, and I love seeing him ever day. Yesterday was just to much. I was angry at him, and that made the whole day about him. Every thing that was on my mind surrounded him.
I don't want to be the same girl I was when we first met. Obessive, and needed him to ALWAYS be there. I don't need that now. I don't need to hang on his every word. But saying that worries me. If I don't need to be around him 24/7 does that mean I should dump him?
My answer is no. I think there is a point in all WORKING relationships where you realize, I need to still be my own person with them. I can still be with them, but not be around them all the time. I'm not really sure how to say what I mean, but that's close enough.
Anyways, he's sick today. So I won't see him at school, but maybe I need time away from him. Just a day, to get over be angry.
And it's not like it's entirely true either. I need some space from Anthony, but I don't want the space. I love him, and I love seeing him ever day. Yesterday was just to much. I was angry at him, and that made the whole day about him. Every thing that was on my mind surrounded him.
I don't want to be the same girl I was when we first met. Obessive, and needed him to ALWAYS be there. I don't need that now. I don't need to hang on his every word. But saying that worries me. If I don't need to be around him 24/7 does that mean I should dump him?
My answer is no. I think there is a point in all WORKING relationships where you realize, I need to still be my own person with them. I can still be with them, but not be around them all the time. I'm not really sure how to say what I mean, but that's close enough.
Anyways, he's sick today. So I won't see him at school, but maybe I need time away from him. Just a day, to get over be angry.
November 9, 2009
These boots are made for walking
I need these boots, I have fallen in love with the brown ones. I have always loved brown or tan boots. The only problem is my coat is a black and while houndstooth, and I do not know if I love the back boots as much as their stunning brown twins. Anthony thinks the fuzzy pom poms are dorky, but I love them. Faux Fur pom poms? So me!
I love Payless Shoes so much right now. Less than 50 for those boots. Maybe I will get a pair for Christmas. Is it to early to be excited for the holidays? I doubt it. I am sure that by now kids are giving their parents endless list of what they want.
Eeeck. I'm so excited.
Although I love and want those boots, the top of my chirstmas list is this stunning necklace.
I really hope I get it. I love Kurt Halsey's art, and would LOVE this fire fly necklace.
Senior Jip day
I was not expecting it to be raining.
So much for going down town to draw. I am not really sure what I am going to do now. Me and Anthony have no plans together, although he has his own plans. One of which is one of the plans I brought up and he shot down. He thinks I am mad at him. The last text he sent me last night was 'Doesnt seem like u like me much right now'. Yeah I am a little annoyed that he keeps shooting down my plans to hangout, but I still love him. I still want to try and see him. I just DO not want to be stuck in my room all day.
Honestly I would rather be at school on senior jip day than sitting in my room all day.
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I'm sitting here hitting that [Next blog] button a million times. I love reading all the things people have to say. And I wonder if anyone reads this blog. I doubt it. But if you are reading this, go listen to some music by Vitamin Records, The String Quartet. I'm listening to their remake of Dare You to Move, and it's beautiful. I love this song before, but just hearing the string remake of it is amazing.
So much for going down town to draw. I am not really sure what I am going to do now. Me and Anthony have no plans together, although he has his own plans. One of which is one of the plans I brought up and he shot down. He thinks I am mad at him. The last text he sent me last night was 'Doesnt seem like u like me much right now'. Yeah I am a little annoyed that he keeps shooting down my plans to hangout, but I still love him. I still want to try and see him. I just DO not want to be stuck in my room all day.
Honestly I would rather be at school on senior jip day than sitting in my room all day.
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I'm sitting here hitting that [Next blog] button a million times. I love reading all the things people have to say. And I wonder if anyone reads this blog. I doubt it. But if you are reading this, go listen to some music by Vitamin Records, The String Quartet. I'm listening to their remake of Dare You to Move, and it's beautiful. I love this song before, but just hearing the string remake of it is amazing.
November 8, 2009
Energy + Juice + Homework
This is what being a senior is about. Sitting in a freakishly uncomfortable chair drinking an energy drink at 7:30pm writing a paper due tomorrow that you have known about for weeks.
I love that I have my notes in my lap along with the book, and SparkNotes open on my computer. I also find it funny that I am blogging about writing this paper instead of doing it. My life would be so much better if I could just blog my homework. I would have to work on my spelling and grammar in order for that to happen, and I do not see that happening any time soon. I do not know how I got into honors English anyways, I cannot spelling to save my life.
I do not even have to hand it in tomorrow. Thank you E-mail. Since everyone I know either has to go to school, or already has plans, I am sure I will be bored out of my mind tomorrow. Maybe I will go shopping for some yummy Vegan food. I like eating Vegan food, even though I know I will never go Vegan. I love cheese way to much, it is just so good. That is also the reason I am so worried about reading Skinny Bitch. There is a whole chapter about dairy and why it is bad for our bodies. I know why it is bad for our bodies, but I just love cheese so much. =)
I need to read Dracula also. I have a book report due for that at the end of the semester. Wow. I cannot believe my senior year is almost half over. I do not think I am ready to be an adult. I have learned to B.S my way through High school, but I do not really think that it will work for college. Eeck. I am so nervous about life after high school. What if I never make any friends? What if I cannot get the money together in time? What if me and Anthony do not work out during college? He is going to a different school, if he ends up going at all. Ah! I really need to stop thinking about this.
If any one is reading this. How do you feel about change?
Like moving to a new city, going to a new school, getting a new job?
I love that I have my notes in my lap along with the book, and SparkNotes open on my computer. I also find it funny that I am blogging about writing this paper instead of doing it. My life would be so much better if I could just blog my homework. I would have to work on my spelling and grammar in order for that to happen, and I do not see that happening any time soon. I do not know how I got into honors English anyways, I cannot spelling to save my life.
I do not even have to hand it in tomorrow. Thank you E-mail. Since everyone I know either has to go to school, or already has plans, I am sure I will be bored out of my mind tomorrow. Maybe I will go shopping for some yummy Vegan food. I like eating Vegan food, even though I know I will never go Vegan. I love cheese way to much, it is just so good. That is also the reason I am so worried about reading Skinny Bitch. There is a whole chapter about dairy and why it is bad for our bodies. I know why it is bad for our bodies, but I just love cheese so much. =)
I need to read Dracula also. I have a book report due for that at the end of the semester. Wow. I cannot believe my senior year is almost half over. I do not think I am ready to be an adult. I have learned to B.S my way through High school, but I do not really think that it will work for college. Eeck. I am so nervous about life after high school. What if I never make any friends? What if I cannot get the money together in time? What if me and Anthony do not work out during college? He is going to a different school, if he ends up going at all. Ah! I really need to stop thinking about this.
If any one is reading this. How do you feel about change?
Like moving to a new city, going to a new school, getting a new job?
It's way to bright
Just woke up, and I feel like shit. Went to a show last night, and it was pretty awkward. Courtney went there to some guy, and spent the whole time flirting with him. He looked like he was 25 or 30. The show it self wasn't my kind of thing, I don't really listen to scream-o music. I might go another one though, since the guy she met is in a band and is playing a show next month.
Last night showed me that I've changed. I love music, and will always love music. But the pot smoke filled cafe is just not were I want to be. There was so much drama just in the small group I was in. And it showed me that I hate being anywhere without my boyfriend. I love talking to people, and getting to know new people, but I'm a flirt and I know I'm a flirt. Now after being in a relationship for 14 months, I'm awkward around guys. I find it hard to talk to new guys, without falling back into the flirty girl I used to be. I would never cheat on him, and I hope he knows that he doesn't have to worry about me. I just wish I knew how to be normal around other guys without thinking I'm going to do something that could be taken wrong. I don't know.
Although last night could have been way better yesterday, day was fun. Hung out with Anthony. Pretty much had the best time of my life. Yeah. If you don't know what I'm hinting at than you shouldn't worry about it. I won't talk about stuff like that much, since I don't think it's a big deal in my life. Couple do couple things, I don't find what I've done to be wrong at all.
He also taught me how to shot a BB gun. I know that sounds pretty lame, I'm almost 18 and I've never shot a BB gun before. It was really fun though, I hit this one bottle a million times. It was a lot of fun, and when I move out of my parents house, I want to learn how to shot a real gun. Just in case. I know that guns have been causing a lot of problems in the world, recently and since forever. But I feel like, if you know what you're doing and you take classes about gun safety, then a gun can be your friend, and can protect you. I don't believe in violence, but I want to know that I'm safe. Anthony has always said he'd protect me no matter what, but I think if I knew how to use a gun than I would know that I could protect me if he wasn't there.
My father got a grandfather clock yesterday. He said I can have it when I move out. YES! I love grandfather clocks I think they are amazing. I'm overly excited about that.
Last night showed me that I've changed. I love music, and will always love music. But the pot smoke filled cafe is just not were I want to be. There was so much drama just in the small group I was in. And it showed me that I hate being anywhere without my boyfriend. I love talking to people, and getting to know new people, but I'm a flirt and I know I'm a flirt. Now after being in a relationship for 14 months, I'm awkward around guys. I find it hard to talk to new guys, without falling back into the flirty girl I used to be. I would never cheat on him, and I hope he knows that he doesn't have to worry about me. I just wish I knew how to be normal around other guys without thinking I'm going to do something that could be taken wrong. I don't know.
Although last night could have been way better yesterday, day was fun. Hung out with Anthony. Pretty much had the best time of my life. Yeah. If you don't know what I'm hinting at than you shouldn't worry about it. I won't talk about stuff like that much, since I don't think it's a big deal in my life. Couple do couple things, I don't find what I've done to be wrong at all.
He also taught me how to shot a BB gun. I know that sounds pretty lame, I'm almost 18 and I've never shot a BB gun before. It was really fun though, I hit this one bottle a million times. It was a lot of fun, and when I move out of my parents house, I want to learn how to shot a real gun. Just in case. I know that guns have been causing a lot of problems in the world, recently and since forever. But I feel like, if you know what you're doing and you take classes about gun safety, then a gun can be your friend, and can protect you. I don't believe in violence, but I want to know that I'm safe. Anthony has always said he'd protect me no matter what, but I think if I knew how to use a gun than I would know that I could protect me if he wasn't there.
My father got a grandfather clock yesterday. He said I can have it when I move out. YES! I love grandfather clocks I think they are amazing. I'm overly excited about that.
November 6, 2009
A moment of silence please.
For all of those who have died over the past few days.
And for all of those who died because they were in the wrong place at the wrong time.
Over the past two days there have been two shootings. And I completely agree with the news, Americans are addicted to violence. This generation is desensitized to violence, and it really is sad. Everyday there are TV shows that focus on violence and death, and the big screen is even worse. I don't understand by violence is so acceptable on TV or in the movies. Things like death and violence are all over the news too, there are no way we can look past it. I understand that it's a part of life, but I think we need to do something about censoring it. I think if we found a way to block the large amount of violence from our youth we wouldn't have these shootings. I'm not saying that they should never show it, because as I said before it's a part of life, I just think we need relax about it.
Update: I just saw on the news that a ten year old boy shot his father. Since he's ten and in a certain part of Texas there is no way he will be tried as an adult. They're calming that he didn't know what he was doing. In this day and age, I don't think any ten year old doesn't know the effects of a gun. The women on the news keep saying that he didn't know what he was doing. That's a lie. After listening to the 911 call, I will admit that he wasn't fully aware that he just killed his dad. That is completely understandable, he's ten, you can't expect him to fulling understand that he just killed someone. But I do not believe that he was unaware of what he was planing to do. He planed to shot his dad, and he knew it was wrong. You know how I know that? He put the gun back in the gun case. I think if I shot someone, I'd be freaking out and just drop the gun. Not take the time to put it away. Call me heartless, but I think he should be tried as an adult. I believe he was fully aware of what he was planning to do.
Alright, here is an update for this morning. I didn't have my meeting with the principle, not sure why. Hopefully they don't plan it for Monday, since that Senior Jip day. Sort of excited that I have more time now, so I can go and look stuff up and have something prepared to talk about. I want to do everything I can to help future vegetarians at my school. Speaking of future students, me and Courtney were talking about a book club, and I think that would be a lot of fun to start. I don't know how I could start that, but I don't think we could get people involved. I got a new book today too. Skinny Bitch. I wouldn't mind dropping a few pounds, but I got it because it has a lot to say about diets and vegetarianism. I know a lot about vegetarianism, but I love to learn.
And for all of those who died because they were in the wrong place at the wrong time.
Over the past two days there have been two shootings. And I completely agree with the news, Americans are addicted to violence. This generation is desensitized to violence, and it really is sad. Everyday there are TV shows that focus on violence and death, and the big screen is even worse. I don't understand by violence is so acceptable on TV or in the movies. Things like death and violence are all over the news too, there are no way we can look past it. I understand that it's a part of life, but I think we need to do something about censoring it. I think if we found a way to block the large amount of violence from our youth we wouldn't have these shootings. I'm not saying that they should never show it, because as I said before it's a part of life, I just think we need relax about it.
Update: I just saw on the news that a ten year old boy shot his father. Since he's ten and in a certain part of Texas there is no way he will be tried as an adult. They're calming that he didn't know what he was doing. In this day and age, I don't think any ten year old doesn't know the effects of a gun. The women on the news keep saying that he didn't know what he was doing. That's a lie. After listening to the 911 call, I will admit that he wasn't fully aware that he just killed his dad. That is completely understandable, he's ten, you can't expect him to fulling understand that he just killed someone. But I do not believe that he was unaware of what he was planing to do. He planed to shot his dad, and he knew it was wrong. You know how I know that? He put the gun back in the gun case. I think if I shot someone, I'd be freaking out and just drop the gun. Not take the time to put it away. Call me heartless, but I think he should be tried as an adult. I believe he was fully aware of what he was planning to do.
Alright, here is an update for this morning. I didn't have my meeting with the principle, not sure why. Hopefully they don't plan it for Monday, since that Senior Jip day. Sort of excited that I have more time now, so I can go and look stuff up and have something prepared to talk about. I want to do everything I can to help future vegetarians at my school. Speaking of future students, me and Courtney were talking about a book club, and I think that would be a lot of fun to start. I don't know how I could start that, but I don't think we could get people involved. I got a new book today too. Skinny Bitch. I wouldn't mind dropping a few pounds, but I got it because it has a lot to say about diets and vegetarianism. I know a lot about vegetarianism, but I love to learn.
Half full?
Lately I have been feeling half full. It's really no fun at all.
I don't know what the reason for it is, but I do know a few things that aren't making it better. I've been worried a lot about school. High school essays, physics, chemistry, scholarship essays. I haven't even started the essay for the 8k scholarship. I don't really know how I should start it. Boo.
Another reason I think I feel weird is, Anthony. I know I love him, I know he loves me. However some times I would love to hear 'Thank you' from time to time. Last night he sat at my house working on his last minute homework, and wasn't sure how to do something in a photo program. So he would ask me for help, since I uses a similar program. Did I help? Yes, or course. Did I ever hear thanks? Nope, or course not, he was too busy working.
In other news. I wrote a letter to the school yesterday. =)
It was about not being able to eat at school because they never have meatless food left by the time my lunch starts. I'm about to open the reply e-mail, I'm a little excited. Alright, here it goes.
I will be meeting with the lunch manager and our principle. I'm really excited to be able to talk about this with them again. It's going to be amazing. I'm nervous because I don't really have anything prepared because this was a spur of the moment thing. I guess I should go to vegadvantage, and goveg or sites like that. I'm super nervous. I'm so glad I could make a difference at our school. I know I'll leave the school at the end of this year, but I want to leave something behind, something that will help others. I know the vegetarian population isn't huge, but I'm know it's growing in popularity.
I'm going to have to go now.
Pack a yummy vegetarian lunch for today, and freak out some more about my meeting.
For the MAYBE one person that reads this. Wish me luck. =)
I don't know what the reason for it is, but I do know a few things that aren't making it better. I've been worried a lot about school. High school essays, physics, chemistry, scholarship essays. I haven't even started the essay for the 8k scholarship. I don't really know how I should start it. Boo.
Another reason I think I feel weird is, Anthony. I know I love him, I know he loves me. However some times I would love to hear 'Thank you' from time to time. Last night he sat at my house working on his last minute homework, and wasn't sure how to do something in a photo program. So he would ask me for help, since I uses a similar program. Did I help? Yes, or course. Did I ever hear thanks? Nope, or course not, he was too busy working.
In other news. I wrote a letter to the school yesterday. =)
It was about not being able to eat at school because they never have meatless food left by the time my lunch starts. I'm about to open the reply e-mail, I'm a little excited. Alright, here it goes.
I will be meeting with the lunch manager and our principle. I'm really excited to be able to talk about this with them again. It's going to be amazing. I'm nervous because I don't really have anything prepared because this was a spur of the moment thing. I guess I should go to vegadvantage, and goveg or sites like that. I'm super nervous. I'm so glad I could make a difference at our school. I know I'll leave the school at the end of this year, but I want to leave something behind, something that will help others. I know the vegetarian population isn't huge, but I'm know it's growing in popularity.
I'm going to have to go now.
Pack a yummy vegetarian lunch for today, and freak out some more about my meeting.
For the MAYBE one person that reads this. Wish me luck. =)
November 4, 2009
I feel like introduction are in order
I never said who I was when I first started this. It’s been a while since I created this and just as long since I’ve updated. For as long as I will have this I will more than likely continue to forget to update. For anyone who really is interesting in what I have to say I have a twitter that I update far too many times.
Hello my name is Inigo Montoya.
Well, maybe not. My name is Taylor and my father was not killed by any 6 fingered man so I don’t plan on killing anyone for revenge. I’m a vegetarian senior at DHS, and cannot wait to start my life when high school is over. My boyfriend is the most perfect guy ever. I know everyone thinks that they are dating the best person ever, but I really am. We met in 6th grade, were sort of friends during middle school, and first dated our freshmen year. We dated again for a little while sophomore year and now we’ve been together since September 19th 2008. We act like we’ve known each other since we were born and it’s never awkward with him. I could talk about him forever, and I know that I will talk about how much I love him, or how much I want to punch him at some point over the life of this blog. I will probably also talk about my vegetarianism a lot also; it has lead me to have a few fun and a few awkward moments.
That seems like a good introduction. However I’ll leave you with a few random facts about me.
I plan to be a reconstructive surgeon.
I love watching horror movies.
I believe in ghost, alien and most paranormal things.
I bite my nails, no matter what I try to do to stop it, I can’t help it.
Feel free to follow me! =) http://twitter.com/TaffHerbivore
Hello my name is Inigo Montoya.
Well, maybe not. My name is Taylor and my father was not killed by any 6 fingered man so I don’t plan on killing anyone for revenge. I’m a vegetarian senior at DHS, and cannot wait to start my life when high school is over. My boyfriend is the most perfect guy ever. I know everyone thinks that they are dating the best person ever, but I really am. We met in 6th grade, were sort of friends during middle school, and first dated our freshmen year. We dated again for a little while sophomore year and now we’ve been together since September 19th 2008. We act like we’ve known each other since we were born and it’s never awkward with him. I could talk about him forever, and I know that I will talk about how much I love him, or how much I want to punch him at some point over the life of this blog. I will probably also talk about my vegetarianism a lot also; it has lead me to have a few fun and a few awkward moments.
That seems like a good introduction. However I’ll leave you with a few random facts about me.
I plan to be a reconstructive surgeon.
I love watching horror movies.
I believe in ghost, alien and most paranormal things.
I bite my nails, no matter what I try to do to stop it, I can’t help it.
Feel free to follow me! =) http://twitter.com/TaffHerbivore
April 9, 2009
Oh how I've missed this.
It seemed like no good could come from this meeting. I never thought things could be the same. Also never thought it seem like nothing changed. I've missed days like this, and I've missed being a part of your life. I feel bad about everything that happened, and I'm excited to know that you're still the same. We've both grown up, but yet somehow we're still the same people.
I'm in awe of today. It seems so unreal that this could have happened. My life seems to be coming together [I say seem a lot. That must be because I'm always so unsure of things] Well, this time I know things are changing. I got a friend back, I'm in a great relationship, I've got a good job. =D
On a different note I'm watching Matilda. This movie is rather stupid, but it makes me feel bad. I know it's sad how the headmistress acted was wrong, I don't think they should have thrown food at her. Or attacked her magically with chalk erasers. This is probably hypocritical of me to say, but I think revenge is meaningless. You're trying to make yourself feel better by sinking to the level of the person that hurt you. Not a lot of sense in that. People do strange things, we're all guilty of it. We all do it. Maybe that's something that we could try to change about everyone. If we all just stopped trying to 'get back' or be better maybe then everything would be okay.
I'm in awe of today. It seems so unreal that this could have happened. My life seems to be coming together [I say seem a lot. That must be because I'm always so unsure of things] Well, this time I know things are changing. I got a friend back, I'm in a great relationship, I've got a good job. =D
On a different note I'm watching Matilda. This movie is rather stupid, but it makes me feel bad. I know it's sad how the headmistress acted was wrong, I don't think they should have thrown food at her. Or attacked her magically with chalk erasers. This is probably hypocritical of me to say, but I think revenge is meaningless. You're trying to make yourself feel better by sinking to the level of the person that hurt you. Not a lot of sense in that. People do strange things, we're all guilty of it. We all do it. Maybe that's something that we could try to change about everyone. If we all just stopped trying to 'get back' or be better maybe then everything would be okay.
You seem like a life time ago.
I don't know what I'm suppose to say.
Is there are book on the 'right thing to say' in these kinds of situation? I could really use that right now. Do I say sorry? Because if so, I haven't figured out what I'm sorry about. Or do I sit back and let you talk? That really does not seem right either. There are a million ways this could play out, but I don't thing it's going to be 'okay'. Bad or good seem like the only two options we have here.
Is there are book on the 'right thing to say' in these kinds of situation? I could really use that right now. Do I say sorry? Because if so, I haven't figured out what I'm sorry about. Or do I sit back and let you talk? That really does not seem right either. There are a million ways this could play out, but I don't thing it's going to be 'okay'. Bad or good seem like the only two options we have here.
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