Pretty much everyone hates me. And that fact is killing me. They don't hate me for any reason other than who and how I am. There isn't anything I can do about it. I learned I'm nothing more than an annoying dramatic bitch to most people.
What am I suppose to do? I can't get mad that they never told me they didn't like me at all. Up until last night I can be leading on my ex-bestfriend to think she still was my bestfriend. Now that's something I need to talk about. I sent Chelsea a text saying I couldn't talking to her anymore because she's changed and I can't handle the way she has been acting. I know it's weak to text her that, but I could handle lying to her any more. Even if I don't want to be her friend, I still respect her enough to tell her I don't want to. Unlike pretty much everyone else who just talks shit about me all the time.
I know I talk about people. But at least when I talk about something I don't like, they either KNOW I don't like them, or I'm not acting like they're friend. I don't pretend to like people. If I'm talking to you, I think you're worth my time to talk to, I think you'll be cool. I don't talk to people and be nice to them then turn around and call them an annoying bitch.
All this has made me realize, I'm NOT joining NAHS and I'm pretty much dropping art class. I don't want to deal with those people and I'm not going to put my self in the positions to be around them all the time. I hate this.
I'm in an insanely depressed mood right now.
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