carpe diem carpe noctem carpe vitam

Trying to get back into painting. I can not say that is is coming alone very well. It just feels flat and not right, like I forgot how I to paint. Which could very well be the case. It has been a year since I was in art class and I do believe that I left a part of me behind when I walked out of that room.

Art has been a big part of my life since for as long as I can remember, I suppose I do not really need a class to be an artist, but miss the feedback. Both positive and negative. So anyone. I'd love to know what you think.
 The trees are just place holders, I'm mostly play around with the ground for now, and when I'm happy with it I'll move on to adding more to the trees and giving the forest a bit more life. I have a beauty vision in my head for this.

There is a girl I when to high school with, she's wild to say the least. Her family is wealthy and that has given her grounds to live her life to the fullest. She has two or three jobs, not because she needs them, but because she gets bored and wants something to do when she's not parting or having a grand old time. I am honestly jealous of her carefree outlook and have decided that I want to try to be like that. She is a lot like Anthony, they both go with the flow and seem to not care about much at all. I like that about both of them, and luckily for me, they hate each other, other wises I might have had to worry about the two of them being so much alike.

But, that is my new years resolution. I want to go with the flow. I want to live my life as much as I can, no more plans, no more worrying (or at least not as much. I am going to try as hard as I can not to worry, but come on, it's me) no more being stressed. I am going to buy myself some Buddhist prayer beads, and make sure that I meditate, I am going to clean and reorganize my room so that when i want to I can start painting. No more of this having to spend twenty minutes cleaning and losing my muse. I am going to be more focused on school but not let it control me. I am not going to worry about getting more hours at work, but I am going to be the best sale associate they have ever seen, and get a million icaps and e-mails. I am going to be happy with who I am, and not worry about what is going to happen tomorrow. Just today. I am going to live in the day, the now.