This letter is honestly the hardest letter to write, because I do not have a bestfriend. Me and the people I kept close have all changed over the years and sadly I have drifted from a lot of people. So this letter is to all the people I kept close, and all I things I want to say.
Dear C, I miss you with every fiber of my being, but I miss the old you. High school turned you into someone who kept secrets and cheated on boyfriends, someone I never thought you would be. You always had the right words for every situation and you always seemed to know who you were. Our personalities did not always click but we knew how to work around that and I miss having that bond in my life. I was always jealous of how perfect I thought your life was and it wasn't until we grew a part that I learn that you were flawed like the rest of us. I wish you had never kept secrets, but I wish I had been able to see that we were falling a part. I miss you, but the old you. I don't know if I can miss a person that would keep someone of the secrets you kept form me.
Dear J, I am glad we still talk, I need a little crazy in my life. We used to stay up all night talking about things that no one else would get, things that no one else would be able to follow. I felt like you were a piece of me separated at birth and that I was lucky to have found you. We fought sometimes too, as all girls do, but never bad fights. Until that one. I am sorry about the things I sad about your brother, I am sorry for not trusting you, I am sorry for judging you. I wonder if that fight is what broke us apart, because I do not know if we'll be the same again. Even though we are not best friends I love that you are still a part of my life. We grew up into new people, better people, but we both still have a little crazy in us.
Dear (different) C, I do not know if I miss you. I text you when I am sad and need someone to talk to, but I do not missing being with you. We had fun when we hung out, you were one of the best friends I could have ever had. But, you always caused a lot of drama in my life. I think I lost a lot of good friends because I stood up for you, which I never regretted until you turned on me. You thought everything was about you and when my dad lost his job and I was upset you made it about you, you ignored me to whine about a girl that was never going to be a part of your life again. You, are the reason you are not with K. You acted like a poison to the people who tried to be close to you, you did the same thing to her that you did to me.
I always try to blame myself when I lose a friend, but I can't this time. You made my life hell with drama, you pushed people away from me and then pushed me away from you. I miss the girl I knew years ago, I miss the girl that didn't care what people thought. I miss the part of you that was an explorer and a thinker and an artist, NOT the parts of you that were a fighter, and a drama queen and a bully.
Dear E, I wish you were still here. Nothing bad ever happened between us except you fell in love and moved. Your boyfriend is amazing, he is the sweetest guy ever but I guess I'll always hate him a little for taking you. My summer was boring without, there was not Wii Fit and going to the part at crazy hours of the morning. I hate out way less and job way less as well. I miss out job together, I miss art class together, I miss how funny you were without trying. I am really glad you met this new guy, because your old wasn't good for you. I always hated to see you sad because I knew you could laugh twenty four seven. Move back?
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